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you should know some things about me.

i am a cryer.

and i’m proud if it.

i cry during wedding speeches for couples i barely know.

i cry in all the softest spots in movies.

i cry when i read.

i cry. full stop.

and so does tj.

she is four and a half.

we don’t have a tv. so we watch movies. pretty special ones.

today we watched et. for the first time with tj.

she didn’t cry.

but normally she does.

she has cried through finding nemo.

utterly bawled her eyes out during brave.

huge plump tears in how to catch a dragon.

and i mean. you turn to look at her. and big fat tears are rolling down her cheeks.

and it makes me cry.

that she has that empathy. understanding. heart. softness. love.

makes me so so so utterly proud of her.

i hope. when she starts wearing mascara. that she doesn’t care.

and big plump tears still flow.

here are her first emotions watching et.

you should also know.

she doesn’t even notice when the camera is near her.

ever.

it has been pointed at her from the first second of her being in this world.

xxxxx

ps

she is my heart. the one that beats outside my body everyday.