i will attempt to put into words what the bottom two images mean to me.
when i meet with my families. and emails go back and forth between myself and the beautiful mums.
i say all the time.
don’t worry.
don’t worry about your home. about how tidy it is.
don’t worry about how you look.
don’t worry about the weight, hair or make-up that isn’t working for you today.
don’t worry about the part of your home that isn’t renovated.
and i have always meant those words. truly.
and then. yesterday.
i had to live them.
and these photos. they are real. and true and honest.
every morning i get up to a little “mummy”…..”mummy”.
at 5am.
i snuggle down in bed with her. we read. we chat. we cuddle.
this first image. i had been awake for about 15minutes. my hair hadn’t been washed for a couple of days. and the day before i had had a hat on it all day. there wasn’t a scrap of make-up on my face. i didn’t have my fancy pjs on. i hadn’t even looked in the mirror.
but this photo.
is real. and true. and exactly how it is. at 5am.
and i am going to put it pride of place in our home. because when she is 25. and travelling the world. and living a million miles away form me. i will have this photo.
of exactly how it is. and exactly how it was.
the second image.
is the routine. in our bathroom that i haven’t been overly fond of since the day we bought our wee home.
but in this image. the bathroom doesn’t even matter.
what i see is our routine. the way every morning we brush our teeth. together. sitting just like this.
me on the edge of the bath. she copying me.
and she wont do this with me forever. nor will she let me jump in and cuddle her each morning forever.
so. these are more than just photos to me.
they hit me in the gut.
and these tiny morning routines. are huge. because these are the moments that actually really really matter.
to me.
to the hours i have stayed at home with her. for the really hard days when being a mummy feels as impossible as moving a mountain.
for the exquisite beauty in the ordinary everyday.
thank you Emma and Pete.
from the absolute depths of our hearts. for capturing what matters most to us. in the whole big wide world.
